i miss the old days .
the happy me . the problem-free me .
i don't like the current me.
i hate it .
i doesn't like to be trap in trouble/problem.
but i just got into 1.
i didn't know how i get involved.
but i'm real tired.
though is solved [ i guess ]
but 'm really tired.

i need the concern .
i need the care.
i need the love.
i need the assurance.
i need everything.
'm jus 18.
shouldn't i be enjoying my life to max ?
shouldn't i be loving everyone that is around me ?
shouldn't i be ..
i'm tired.
no one realised.

had a chat with dad.
i realised how shitty i m .
i'm useless.
carn even help him to solve the problems.
i'm dumb.
carn even meet the expectation that he set for me .
i'm ..
everything deep in .
are coated with the sad feels .
i'm tired .
of everything.
my friends seems to be leaving me.
my family seems to drift apart from me.
my loved, alr left me .
i left with myself.
i guess i'm losing it too.
i hate being down, depressed. but yet.
i'm in it .
i hate it , hate it !

i got no idea.
what kind of life i'm leading.
i carn meet my own expectation .
i hate the current me.

i'm just being sad. depressed.

current song in mind. -> bad day by daniel powter.